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I noticed something last night. Well, over the last few days, but it really hit me last night and tonight.
I'm getting very scared of absolutely nothing lately.
A few days ago, I saw clues that there's a mouse in the house. No big surprise. We have fields on two sides plus woods behind us. Some of the farmers are harvesting and dad just mowed some big weeds and it's getting a little chilly at night. Well, since I figured it out, I've actually been afraid to go downstairs. The only times I've been down there are to go to the bathroom and to quickly grab something to eat. And to leave the house. I probably won't go down there until tomorrow night. And I know I'll be on guard even then. By Wednesday any mice should be dead, since dad put poison in the living room and kitchen this morning.
Then tonight I noticed that I'm also terrified of driving home at night. I was going 40mph on a highway. I know that part of it is that this car has an airbag and it's the first one I've ever had that does. I'm terrified of it deploying. And with all the fields and woods around, I'm afraid to hit a deer just right and make it deploy. I think I'm gonna deactivate the stupid thing. I shouldn't be terrified to drive my own car.
On the car front, it shakes a bit because the motor misses and I need a new tire (it's really not that bad at all, just adds to the shake), no big deal really, but for some reason I'm afraid that something horrible is going to happen while I'm driving. Like a wheel is going to fly off. I'm fine driving into town and into BG (only 10 miles away), but anything farther than that gets me scared.
I've also hardly gone in any part of the yard except the front yard this whole summer because I'm afraid I'll see a mouse or a snake. I wasn't this bad last summer.
So why am I suddenly terrified of everything lately?
I'm getting very scared of absolutely nothing lately.
A few days ago, I saw clues that there's a mouse in the house. No big surprise. We have fields on two sides plus woods behind us. Some of the farmers are harvesting and dad just mowed some big weeds and it's getting a little chilly at night. Well, since I figured it out, I've actually been afraid to go downstairs. The only times I've been down there are to go to the bathroom and to quickly grab something to eat. And to leave the house. I probably won't go down there until tomorrow night. And I know I'll be on guard even then. By Wednesday any mice should be dead, since dad put poison in the living room and kitchen this morning.
Then tonight I noticed that I'm also terrified of driving home at night. I was going 40mph on a highway. I know that part of it is that this car has an airbag and it's the first one I've ever had that does. I'm terrified of it deploying. And with all the fields and woods around, I'm afraid to hit a deer just right and make it deploy. I think I'm gonna deactivate the stupid thing. I shouldn't be terrified to drive my own car.
On the car front, it shakes a bit because the motor misses and I need a new tire (it's really not that bad at all, just adds to the shake), no big deal really, but for some reason I'm afraid that something horrible is going to happen while I'm driving. Like a wheel is going to fly off. I'm fine driving into town and into BG (only 10 miles away), but anything farther than that gets me scared.
I've also hardly gone in any part of the yard except the front yard this whole summer because I'm afraid I'll see a mouse or a snake. I wasn't this bad last summer.
So why am I suddenly terrified of everything lately?
