Dream

[domino43]

Okay, so this morning I had a very strange dream.

At the begining of the dream, my whole family was over at my mom's old house (the house I grew up in).  Me and dad and a couple of brothers were there.  I wrestled my little brother Austin down to the floor and had him pinned to the ground and pulled his shirt up to blow on his stomach.  Before I did, I patted it and said, "Getting 'fat likedaddy', huh?"  (He used to call the "Big Boy" statue out front of the restaurants, "Fat like Daddy")

And he said, "My real dad's not fat..." (apperantly in the dream, he had a different dad.)  I just looked at him.

Then I said, matter-of-factly, pointing at my dad, "He is your real dad.  Do you hear me?"  I could see a pain in my dad's eyes.

Then dad said something about leaving, so I said that I was going to say good-bye to mom.  I went into her bedroom and said we were leaving.  Then just before I was about to turn and leave the room, I said, "Tell me something truthfully..."  She was like, "What?"  And I said something along the lines of, "How could you tell Austin he has a different dad?"

She was all like, "He does."

I told her, "Well, you didn't have to tell him.  How could you do that to dad anyway.  Just because you're a whore and slept with someone while you were married..."  Then she tried to drown me out, saying something.  Then I said something like, "If you would have gotten a divorce, like a year after that, that would be different.  But you waited TEN YEARS!"

Then we got into this HUGE yelling match.  I couldn't really tell what either of us was saying.  At some point, Neal came in and layed on her bad with her and just listened to us fight.  While I was walking around, at one point, Austin came in and started crying about the things we were saying.  Mom was all, "See what you did?"

I couldn't believe she was blaming me,so I walked closer to the bed and said, "It's your fault for being a WHORE!"  She looked at me with her mouth hanging open like, 'How dare you!'  I turned to Neal and said, "Isn't that what you'd think of Kim if she cheated on you?"

Mom interrupted and said, "Well, it's fine for some people..."

I told her, "Yeah, if both people agree and are careful..."  Then I walked around to the side of the bed, right next to her and said, "But you're just a slutty whore!"  and stormed out of the room.  That's when I woke up.  I have NO idea what it was all about.  I KNOW that Austin doesn't have a different dad.  And I KNOW that, no matter how completely slutty and horrible of a person she can be NOW, she would NEVER have cheated on dad.  Especially back when Auddie was born.  I guess it was just a way for my brain to deal with all the differences of opinion, and problems I have with my mom.  I don't know...  Don't know what brought it on...